Ramblings from the publisher

I wasn’t being very nice to myself for a lot of years. I’ve let others manipulate me. I’ve put others’ opinions of me above my own. Most of the time I felt like I was broken. It wasn’t always like this. A lot of this came after I had colon cancer almost 14 years ago. I had felt “less than” after the cancer. I didn’t feel strong anymore. I didn’t feel lovable anymore. I lost my home. I lost belief in myself and my abilities. I was deeply wounded, and sure, I got to a point that I was able to function like a normal person most of the time. But it wasn’t enough.

There was a whole on-slaught of things that happened in the few years following the cancer that held me down in body, mind, & spirit. Yes, I had reached out for help, in fact with several practitioners that advertised in Hedra.... and yes, it helped me to see that I was in trouble. However, it wasn’t until I decided to stop just taking up space and become a productive part of society again that I started to slowly climb out of the dark hole I had been living in.

In the last several years the desire and drive to live “bigger & better” has awakened in me again. I’ve stepped up to be kinder and more loving to myself. To stop judging myself based on anyone else. I am a good person. I am a loving person and I deserve to be treated as such. Because of my cancer story I let others treat me differently than what I deserved because I was not believing in myself. I had been knocked down hard and I was struggling to even want to get up.

I had to find my spirit again ~ and I finally feel that I have!!! YES!

The energy shifts that have been happening in recent times has finally entered into my life. Earlier this year, through a conversation I had, my world just OPENNED UP! I felt FREE Again! I felt like ME again!

I have been surprised by how I have changed when I put myself first and spend just a little time encouraging & honoring me being me. I also have been doing a very simple morning meditation that reminds me daily to believe in myself.

Now life looks like a place I want to be. It feels like I have been given another chance now to live the life I want.

Because of my past I am still getting a little hung up on feeling Safe and being able to Trust, however I am happy to say that I’m getting there.

My environment has not changed yet, but what has made the biggest difference is the release I felt from that conversation. It gave me a permission I had not allowed for myself. It was like cutting the strings that controlled the puppet - I was the puppet. Now I have my wings back to believe in myself again.

If permission is holding you back ~ I give you permission right here and now! If the change will make your life better... take it.

Debbie

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